3 weeks old!!!!!!!!!!!

Home Sweet Home

They let my baby girls come home at 14 days old/2 weeks. London and Sydney are 3 weeks old today. They have been home for one week. All I can say is we are all adjusting. The first few days were rough. Then the next few days were a breeze, but last night was HELL. I am so sleep deprived but its worth it. Breastfeeding was a struggle int the beginning but its going great now. I can tandem nurse them like a pro. I know its gross, but it makes me feel like a dog with 2 puppies hanging off of me. They are so cute and their brothers just love them. I have to keep reminding Babe that I know how to take care of a baby. He is so over-protective. I keep telling him hes going to give himself high blood pressure. I went to my local WIC office since the pediatrician recommended I give the girls some ''special'' formula, it has extra calories to help their lil tiny butts gain some weight. Well the milk is $28 a can...LOL>>>they need to get jobs or go into show business or something thats expensive.

12 days old

My baby girls are still in preemie jail (NICU). I like to call it that because it doesnt seem so grim to me. I like to incorporate a little humor into everything. Keeps me young. The girls are doing really well. They only needed to keep there temperature, pass the carseat test and get rid of that jaundice. They did all of that. They were scheduled to come home yesterday, which was Friday but they called Thursday and said that the jaundice was back and that we couldnt bring them home. I was so dissappointed, I cried. So back under the Billi Lights they went. Since going back in the incubator under the lights would make the babies confused about how to keep their temperature, they have them laying on top of this thing called a billi-blanket. It goes on their backs against the bare skin. Well Londons levels went down but Sydneys didnt. So they had to put Sydney back in the incubator. Thats a setback because now she might be all screwed up temperature wise when they finally take her out, which makes for a longer stay. This NICU stay is starting to become a rollercoaster ride. I am happy that they dont have any ''real'' preemie problems. I come down here and sit all day. Babe goes to work so I spend alot of the time here alone but he comes after he gets off, then we go home. This has been a very humbling experience. Some of these parents didnt get the chance to sit because their babies died. As I sit here in the Nicu blogging their is a family next to me with ''The Priest". The staff just told them their baby isnt going to make it. That could have so easily been me. London wasnt breathing on her own when she came out and needed a ventilator, but she pulled through, thank God.

I want my babies to come home but for selfish reasons. I know and understand that they are in the best place for them right now. Patience is a virtue.

2 Little Boone Girls-1 week old

I swear to God the NICU is holding my babies hostage. They are now drinking an ounce of milk a piece. Sydney is off the billi-lights and they just put London under them, hopefully she will be off of them by tonight or tomorrow. The Dr is always talking about how well they eat. London seems to be my big eater. They are taking their I.V.'s out today. Last nite Sydney had clothes on, she looked so cute. It seems to me that London is around a day behind. Babe calls them Benjamin Button and Stallone because Sydney looks old and Londons face is kinda flat. He is crazy. I'll just be glad when I can leave the hospital with them. I feel so bad leaving them there. I spend most of my time down at the NICU with them. I am so tired.

Ive been okay. Im still having some bladder issues. Pain and I cant pee unless I lay down first. It is also very painful. I had to let Babe clean my incision site. I cried for like a hour before I let him do it. It didnt even hurt. I dont see how he deals with me. I was just scared that something would get stuck to my staples. I cant wait to get these damn things out. They itch but it actually doesnt look bad. Dr Julian did a very good job. Even though I swear something is wrong with my bladder. Other than my bladder ''issues'' Im dealing with swelling in my legs, they say its from the amniotic fluid and I have to urinate it out, but since I can hardly pee its taking a little longer than usual.

I dont care about me though. The girls have been in the NICU for 7 days, I just want them to come home. I miss Stallone and Benjamin.

London and Sydney are 5 days old!!

I really dont even feel like blogging but I have to because this blog is for my girls and for other people that may be facing what I went through. Im missing my babies like crazy. They have been in the NICU since birth, 5 days...I cry everytime I have to leave them. They are exceptionally healthy for their age. They are doing really well, dont get me wrong but I want them to come home. Just me being selfish I guess, they are in the best place for them right now. But I cant help it...Sydney is jaundiced so they have her under the billi-lights. London should be going under them starting tomorrow. They have been eating really well so they upped there ml's of milk from 15 to 20 and lowered their I.V. fluids. The nurse said they should be off of the I.v.'s by Monday or Tuesday. Thats a step closer to them coming home.

I made a post a few weeks back, I was saying it would be funny if the girls turned out to be fraternal. Well I havent heard anything yet but Im laughing because London and Sydney look nothing alike but dont hold me to that, the testing hasnt been done yet. But they look like 2 totally different babies to me.

I miss my little girls, I can go see them 24 hrs 7 days but it doesnt make up for how bad I miss them when Im at home and they are still there in the NICU.

London and Sydney 5 days old!!!