Well just when I thought everything was going good, they call me with some bad news. The specialist called and said that he was reviewing my films again and that one of the girls blood flow was faster than the other. That is not normal...it is a symptom of twin to twin transfusion syndrome. I have to go back in Friday so he can take another look and double check. I hope this appointment isnt going to confirm my worst fears. I cant lie, I am scared shitless, but I am grateful. When I first found out what type of twins I was carrying, I prayed everyday that I would make it to the point of good viability for my babies, and that was 28 weeks...I made it and I am so thankful because if it is something wrong they have a good chance of surviving if they have to deliver them. They will be really small but they have a 90% chance of survival. I knew that there was a possibility that I might have to walk down this road and I have accepted it. But that doesnt mean that I am ready. I cant do anything until Friday, I am just hoping that maybe it was screwed up because Sydney wouldnt keep her bad butt still. I love them and I cant wait to see them, but I would much rather wait 8 more weeks. Its just to early. I made it to 28 weeks, the next goal was set for week 32, Lets hope and pray I make it. Its Wednesday night, I will update you all Friday afternoon.
Its gonna be a long Thursday........
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