Last Days at 29 weeks

I went to my appts for the week. I was shocked to find out that they have scheduled my c-section for 4 1/2 weeks from now. I was totally not expecting that. I didnt think I would be having them till atleast the middle of July, but they will be here in June. Im scared. I am not ready and I am worried about the c-section. I am too the point where I will be glad when this is over. Its beginning to be a bit much. They will only be 34 weeks then so they may not be able to come home right away because they might have to stay in the NICU for awhile so I guess I better brush up on my Nicu terminology and information just in case. I will start getting steriod shots soon to help mature their lungs faster. Research shows that black female preemies do better in Nicu anyway. I thought 34 weeks was too early but according to the specialist, 34 weeks is the ideal time to deliver to avoid any possible ''devastation''...cord accidents, things like that. He said they recently changed the protocols for this type of twin. Why risk it? Its better to be safe than sorry, so I agree with him. The Dr's at Mercy have been doing a really good job monitoring this pregnancy. But that doesnt stop me from worrying. The girls are 3lbs and some ounces a piece so hopefully they will be atleast 5 lbs by their birthday. I pray I make it through the next few weeks without having a panic/anxiety attack. These little girls are coming whether Im ready or not. Another thing is I was asking my Dr if my baby A and Baby b would be lettered the same when they come out, he tells me no because an ultrasound is flat and that it looks totally different when they go inside of you. So London and Sydney may be mixed up...that is not something you tell a person that has the issues that I have. I can see it now for the rest of my life I would be thinking that London is actually Sydney and vice versa. He said what I can do is ask the ultrasound tech to get the most accurate weight possible at my last ultrasound and then match them up when the babies are born or maybe we can tell by their positions, I dont know. I am crazy, I know because I have never heard any other twin mothers say anything about this....but I just cant help it.


Princess London Earlene & Princess Sydney Darlene coming June__,2010
**the day is top secret**