23 weeks still

Just thinking about my girls today. I have so much insight and life experience to offer them about certain things. I have been through alot in my 27 years. Enough stuff to allow me to be wise beyond my years. I know alot and hopefully i have gained enough experience to train my girls the right way and they wont have to find out the hard way about anything in life. I know I cant protect them from everything but I can damn well try. I'll be the emotional protector and Im pretty sure Babe will be the physical protector. My biggest fear is that I will be inadequate. I dont want to be too hard on them but they need to be educated on the ills of this world, fake friends, phoney family, religion, men, money and then some. I have my boys but they are men and they are being raise with a iron fist, they are already far more mature and well mannered more then most kids there ages. With girls its different I dont want them to be anybody's damn fool. I dont care who it is, Call me acting funny..I dont care but Im trying to clean up my act a little bit more. Not like Im out here drinking, drugging and sleeping around, but I have a few loose ends to tie up...like I curse way too much and there are some people in my life that I just plain dont want them around.
Some people can make for bad influences even if they arent around your kid much. Babe says dont worry about it...Im a good mother...its just that I have to raise two of them at the same time if it was one little girl cool...but its two and I feel like im under alot of pressure here. Just glad that I have a real man to back me up...100% by any means necessary....I feel sorry for some of these women. Its alot of men that have male parts but they act like b%$#^(sorry daddy). Im just glad Im not one of those. Im glad that my daughters and my sons have a father in their life that can show them the right way even if he is very stern at times, its all love. You never know how much the little things you do can affect your child. I dont know maybe Im crazy. I just cant wait for them to get here so I can love them. This pregnancy has been worry from the moment I found out I was having twins and all the complications that I am facing. If I can just make it to the end with know problems I will be content. I cant be concerned with anything else right now, just getting them here. I am having a pretty uneventful week, which is always good. Babe can feel them kick now. The girls are really active at night. I suffer from really bad insomnia so I dont care. Im suppose to take meds for it but I cant right now. I wont after either because of the breastfeeding. I'll just have to suffer but I dont care. Its like Im a vampire I cant sleep at night but I can nap during the day.
I have been trying to keep my stress to a minimum but sometimes its hard....I just let alot of people and things that dont matter get to me. Im proud of myself though I am doing good.

Im happy Im content and nobody can steal my joy, their problems are there problems and dont concern me. Its not my job to make anybody else happy and if that means separating myself from people then by all means so be it. Its all about London and Sydney. But I swear on my life after this pregnancy is over...i have to give a few people a real good tongue lashing, but then that would make people feel important when they really arent...hmmm...see you guys in week 24 :-)