31 weeks

So I know I am late as crap posting this. But I am completely miserable, I huge and evil as hell. Alot of people in my life are really beginning to bother me or maybe Im just tired. I would much rather be alone and left alone these days. I have absolutely NO PATIENCE to deal with anyone but my children. I dont know if its the hormones or if people are just being shitty assholes (sorry daddy). I cant sleep at night, I have tried everything in Gods creation to get comfortable, but between heartburn and running to the bathroom every five minutes and just being freaking huge, I cant get any rest. I had 4 appts this week regular OB, dopplers, ultrasound and Non-stress tests. I swear Im about to ask for a permanent room at the hospital as much as I am there. And its not going to get any better until I deliver. At first I was worried about the 34 week delivery but now, I am ready. But that doesnt mean that Im not scared. My appts went well this week. London is 3lbs 11 oz and Sydney is the same. Im hoping that the weight estimates are wrong because I would love it if they were atleast 5lb's at birth. They tentatively have 3 weeks to gain 1lb and 5oz's. I think they can do it they are doing so well. I think I should be getting my steroid shots soon. I forgot to ask Dr. Atlas yesterday and he has yet to return my phone call. Im so not in the mood for games, but patience is a virtue. They took a really good 3D picture of Sydney today, she is really pretty from what I can see and since they are identical, they both are. I just hope they have hair. I hate to see a completely bald headed baby girl. As long as they are healthy I really dont care, Im lieing, I really hope they have hair LOL. They better have hair because this pregnancy has made my hair fall out pretty bad, Im thinking about cutting it. But its been a year since my ''army shave'' and Im really trying to let it grow out.

I am a little worried about them not coming home with me and staying in the NICU but its cool. Everything will be okay. I am still trying to deal with my anxiety issues as far as this pending c-section. Im doing everything in my power not to panic. But once I get in the operating room, I will probably get really anxious and panicky. Im actually happ they are putting me to sleep for this because even if I could get a spinal or epidural, I would freak out knowing they were ''digging'' around in my insides....gross!!!! I havent taking any anxiety meds this entire pregnancy. I am surprise I havent snapped by now. I guess somethings are just more important. But I will probably get back on as soon as I deliver. As long as it doesnt transfer to my babies via breastmilk. Things can get a little haywire when your hormones and stuff are trying to get back on track. Especially when dealing with an infant also, let alone 2. A little over 2 weeks to go until I see my little twin parasites...LOL

June__, 2010 is around the corner Not far to go now.
Little Miss London and Little Miss Sydney will be here very soon :-)